[DOTS FanFic] Love for Another Time

Title: Love for Another Time
Pairing: Mild Si Jin X Argus
Genre: Angst
For: chweetcandy05
Summary: Si Jin and what if's if he and Argus had taken another path.

Yoo Si Jin sat propped against the headboard, his knees drawn to his chin, his head resting on folded arms. The night was passing along quickly and he couldn’t sleep, so much David Argus running through his mind. All along, he knew letting him into his heart could hurt him. He believed in people and that was one of his weaknesses.

David had told him this so many times. He had said, “You and your rules will one day get you killed. Just as that soft spot you have for people.”

At the time, Si Jin never believed that someone that protected each other like brothers would end up spitting on his trust and betraying the ethical code that he believed in. It honestly, hurt.

Alpha Team had joined up with the Black Op and just those small missions and feeling of connection between him and the Captain Argus he believe was enough to give trust.

He was wrong. He was always attracted to the wrong sort.

Argus was charismatic bona fid leader. He was able to charm people around him, inserting himself into men’s desires of belonging. The photograph and saying of ‘kimichi’ instead of cheese, the little nuances of touches and great big smiles when they get drunk together.

And yet, he felt this spark with Argus that went straight to his bones.

Adam apple bobbling along, trickle of tears slid down the side of his face. David the name according to Hebrew Bible depicted as a valorous warrior, a poet, and a musician. Si Jin did not know if his parents named him for the traits that would grow. David was able to sing, he was a warrior, and he seduced him like a poet, without anything except his waxing words during soften moments in the dead of the night.

However, there was always two side of the coin, the name Argus in Greek myth that he was the watchman for Hera. In Si Jin mind he should of known that Argus was a monster, he was wakeful and alert and always watching and planning.

The name also meant that he would be slain, but for Si Jin he never thought it would be by his own hand that he shoots Argus dead.

The thought of what could have been, if the Black Op had continued their work together. If Argus had simply quit and move to Korea or vice versa, would that brilliant man be alive? Yet life was like that, a bunch of what ifs and he knew that he had to move on and not dwell.

For someone like him, life is short to waste, but he would always linger staring at the ceiling of whatever room he dwell in and wonder, inwardly, if there could have been more.