Title: Letters of Love in a Hopeless Place
Chapter2
Author: Winterbubbletea
Pairing: Du Zi Feng/Pi Ya Nuo
Dear Ya Nuo,
I love you. I need
you. There is a hunger that is gnawing on my inside and only being able to see
you, hear you, touch you, can it be sated for a small amount of time. I feel my
insides flair when you are not beside me. Though I can focus on my work, I long
for you. This longing is a sickness inside that I do not want ever to fade away.
You, simply only you, can help me.
I know that I reacted rashly. I admit I felt like I was
cheating on you. Being caught by you was the worse feeling I ever had inside
me. We weren’t together then, but I like to say I am sorry. It won’t happen
again. I always feel you were crying and that I was guilty.
The world doesn’t matter to me as long as I have you. Stay
beside me, don’t leave me, I want to grow old with you. I want to show you the
world. Every moment with you brings me happiness and I cannot help but keep looking
at you.
Would you feel the same as I do? I know you suffer concerns
from the world opinion, but I don’t care. When you try to leave me, I swore to
myself that I would stop you. You are not allowed to leave me. My threats were serious. I wasn’t kidding,
when I said in the future, if you dare to go missing again, I don’t know what
else I will do.
I may make you unhappy. Chaining you with me day in day out
you won’t be able to get rid of me. I would lock you to me for life. Is this
called obsession? I have lost so much Ya Nuo, but when you came into my life, I
felt full again.
I smile more, you gave me back my father with your gentle
kindness, and I cannot help but desire you. You know when sometimes you meet
someone so gorgeous and lively, and then you actually talk to them and find out
they are dull and not as pretty inside. Then there are other people and you
meet then and you think, ‘Not bad, they’re okay.’
However, as time goes by and
you get to know them and their face just becomes them. Almost like their
personality is flooding all over and they don’t just look ordinary anymore, and
you keep look and look until they turn into something so beautiful.
To me you are everything, you are my one, and I am glad I
had met you. I am never alone with you beside me.
So I say once again. Pi Ya Nuo. Be with me! Love me. I am
waiting, here right now with my arms wide open. Your happiness is everything to
me.
Yours
for Eternity,